The mystic Luisa Piccarreta was a victim soul, confined to her bed and living solely on the Eucharist and the Divine Will for some 60 years. She received the command of obedience from her confessor to reveal how she prepares herself to receive and thank Jesus at Holy Communion. Here is what she wrote on April 10, 1910:
I write to obey, but I feel my heart crack from the effort I am making. But, Viva Obedience – Viva
the Will of God! I write, but I tremble, and I myself don’t know what
I am saying. Obedience wants me to write something about how I
prepare myself and thank blessed Jesus at Communion. I don’t know how
to say anything about it, because my sweet Jesus, in seeing my
incapacity and that I am good at nothing, does everything Himself: He
prepares my soul, and He Himself administers the thanksgiving to me;
and I follow Him.
Now, the way of Jesus
is always immense, and together with Jesus, I too feel immense, and as
if I were able to do something. Then Jesus withdraws, and I remain
always the stupid one that I am, the little ignorant one, the little
naughty one. And it is exactly because of this that Jesus loves me –
because I am ignorant, and I am no one, and I can do nothing. Knowing
that I want to receive Him at any cost, so as not to receive dishonor in
coming into me, but rather, highest honor, He Himself prepares my poor
soul. He gives me His own things, His merits, His clothing, His
works, His desires – in sum, all of Himself. If necessary, also that
which the Saints did, because everything is His own; if necessary, also
that which the Most Holy Mama did. And I too say to all: ‘Jesus,
give honor to Yourself in coming into me. My Queen Mama, Saints, all
Angels, I am so very poor; everything that is yours – put it in my
heart, not for me, but for the honor of Jesus.’ And I feel that all of
Heaven contributes to preparing me. And after Jesus has descended
within me, I seem to see Him all pleased, seeing Himself honored by His
own things; and sometimes He tells me: “Brava, brava, my
daughter, how happy I am – how pleased I am. Everywhere I look within
you, I find things worthy of Me. Everything that is mine, is yours;
how many beautiful things you made Me find!”
Knowing
that I am so very poor, that I have done nothing, and that nothing is
mine, I laugh at the contentment of Jesus, and I say: ‘Thank goodness
Jesus thinks like this! It is enough that He came – this is enough for
me. It doesn’t matter that I have used His own things – the poor must
receive from the rich.’ Now, it is true that a few glimmers here and
there remain in me about the way Jesus has at Communion, but I am
unable to reunite these glimmers together, and form a preparation and a
thanksgiving. I lack the capacity; it seems to me that I prepare
myself in Jesus Himself, and that I thank Him with Jesus Himself.
From the approved Volume Nine of the spiritual "Diary" Book of Heaven, of the Servant of God Luisa Piccarreta. Imprimatur of Archbishop Joseph Leo and Nihil Obstat of (now Saint) Fr. Annibale Di Francia.